He's Up To Something

I've been praying and trying hard to get a job for the past several months.  I keep asking God over and over for it, weighing my motives and wondering why it hasn't seemed to happen yet.  But this morning I was praying for a job and felt God say, "You are going into work today.  You've worked and earned money for all your bills in the past month or two.  How do you not have a job?"  And He's right.  I have been blessed to have work off and on for a while now.  I've never missed a payment.

And I know God knows what I mean when I say "job."  Matthew 7: 9+10 says, "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone?  Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?" I'm God's son.  He's my dad and He'll provide.  And that's not saying that the work I've been doing is the same as a stone in exchange for bread.  Not at all.  I just mean that God cuts through my vagueness.  Maybe I ought to be more specific.  

 It's hard to say, and I feel a little stupid for thinking this way, but if I could go back in time and get a career in my field of expertise straight out of college I don't think I would.  I mean, I want one.  Badly.  But I have learned so much about myself, money management, God's character, accepting help, humility, waiting on God patiently, etc.  I'm sure could go on.  

I know God's up to something. I'm not going to be treading water forever.  It's really nerve-racking at times and the Enemy knows it gets to me.  Through this time I just want to once again affirm that God is good.  Even though His hand seems to be pausing me instead of taking me somewhere, I know He's got a plan.  I can rest in that.